I dont know wht happened today

I seriously have no idea wht happened today but i think i made my jaan suffer.... I am sorry for that... But really she trusts me more than anyone and whn i let her down i feel so very bad.... I know she talks of break ups quite frequently but i know she wont leave me and go..... I trust her and love her very much... I wont leave her alone what ever the situation may be... I will always be on her side to help her and i wish that she will be on my side always..... When i cry for her doesn't mean that i am weak its just that i care for her very much and i will make u my strength  for sure.... I love u jaan.... Tc... :-)

The fear of loosing u

A poem not written by me..... I just dedicate this to a person who means a lot to me:

The fear of losing you is almost unbearable, thoughts flash through my mind and most of the time they seem so unkind, all my lyf I have searched for a girl, someone who loves me and completes my world, someone who doesn't care what others may say, she'll stick by my side even through the toughest of days, when she is not around my spirit goes down, my lips turn from a smile to a frown

The fear of loosing u and yes this is true I know i'll never find a grl quite lyk u... 

This time i almost lost my life

With my love i took someone's freedom.... I never realized hw she felt... I respect her freeom but with the love i have for her i never realized i got so very possessive that i made my 'boring' lyf hers.... I am sorry for for that....I became no different from other guys.... I got aggressive by hearing the point of views from a person who doesn't even deserve respect..... I forgot that they all were frnds b4 we even met.... I thank " mahadev" for a final chance and my "frnds" who supported me and also my "jaana" who has a very big heart......i love her so very much even after she doesn't  have the same feelings for me..... I will try to make ur feelings the way they were again.... Tc....i love u. :-'(

Proud to have u

I seriously never knew how much she loved me until today.... I am proud to have her as my girlfrnd.... I just love her from each and every part of my heart...She changed my life and made it wonderful....Today i feel i m so blessed to have her in my life...This is a poem i would lyk to dedicate to her (not written by me :-p)


I had spent so many years leering into the vast darkness of night. 
I was searching for the answers that could complete the puzzle of my life. 
Like so many nights before, waiting for a shooting star to wish upon. 
And every time I found one I wished for someone like you to come along. 

I used to lie in bed at night and dream a dream of you 
And I would fall asleep feeling so alone and awaking as I always do. 
To my empty bed with pillows piled to hug like you were near. 
And I would feel so sad inside knowing, it was a dream you were not here. 

So back to heavens skies I would go at night, and stare up at the stars 
And feeling so small amongst it all, wishing upon my shooting star from afar 
But after many long cold nights of searching through the skies 
On a cold December afternoon I received the most amazing surprise 

The surprise was meeting you my love, my angel from above 
You shower me with tenderness and uncontested love 
You give to me the strength I need to be a better man 
And to know what love is really like, you help me to understand 

Your smile sets my soul ablaze, and your voice carries like song 
You lift me up from feeling down when every thing goes wrong 
You complete my puzzle and were the piece I could not find 
But now together with you in life I can not get you off my mind 

You are in my dreams at night and my thoughts throughout the day 
I never thought I could love someone in every single way 
I was destined to meet you my angel and that is true to see 
I was made for loving you and you were made for loving me. 
I impatiently wait until we can be united eternally in life 
With me as your loving husband and you as my loving wife

A day when i almost lost her

She is everythng to me....If anythng wud have happened to her there there wud have been no forgiveness for that....I wouldn't have been able to forgive myself for that really....It proved out to be a tough day once again..We got out of it together was important.....I know we both are totally different kind of people but as we know only the opposite poles in a magnet attract.... I let her down yet again and i am extremely sorry for that....She is really one of the best thngs ever happened to me......She will always be respected by me.....She will always be my lyf(my jaan)......And i love her very much..... I hate to see her cry and suffer....I always want her to be happy really i mean it from each and every part of my heart.....So always keep smiling and always be cool..... Take Care... :-)

the big fight

Yestday was a tough day....really thngs didn't go that well...She taught me and made me realize the importance of small thngs that matter to her...Seriously i never took those thngs into consideration bcoz  didnt knew...it wasnt bcoz i thought she didnt deserve or anythng lyk that...She deserves happiness which i try to give but ystday i came to know that it wasnt enough from my side...I am sorry for that....Ystday i suppose she slept with tears in her eyes and i was not able to make her happy...i am sorry....

But today was gud...Thngs got back to normal...She was happy and even i was..Its gud that i am improving...She is everythng to me....I love her..... She is my jaana.....

Lucky to have her

Seriously i am very lucky to have her by my side.....Today when she came and told me that she had brought somethng for my family that she had made i was so very happy.....She thinks of my family and when she wrote that she loves my family i didnt had words to describe my feelings.....The sweet that she made was not as sweet as she is....She is a wonderful human being who loves me even after i told her about the mistake i made which i regret....When she kissed my forehead i really felt that she is the one i want to spend my lyf with....She is very innocent and with it she almost told my sister abt our relationship.....i love her and respect her very much....When she says "I love u baby",when she writes a blog i just feel lyk i dont love her as much as she deserves.....Feels lyk i should love her even more.....She is my jaana and i love her very much... :-)

When people told "everything happens for a reason" i never believed them....but when she came in my lyf i realized it to be true not bcoz i have her as my grl frnd but as a person i came to know how she felt....She taught me to trust...I have learnt to be calm,the importance of small things that made her happy which i had never noticed....She is very innocent and lovely...The time i spend with her will always be remembered...The thing i lyk abt her is she is not proud....The best part till date was the cake she made....She brought it for me and it was not bad...This was the first tym i tasted something cooked by her....Seriously i just ate it bcoz she made it...Taste was never a concern for me.That feeling was superb....She has always been on my side...I love her the way she is....She is very beautiful...She is my jaana and i love her... :-)